This song began days before the birth of our 6th child, who was born in Kingston upon Thames, England while we were living and working there. Several years before this, we had found out about "Fragile X Syndrome," a permanent genetical condition that was affecting our son causing severe developmental delays and big challenges, such as toilet training (Benjamin is now 11 and still not fully toilet trained). Knowing the genetical information, and having four daughters and one son, we decided to take a "step of faith" to try and have one more child. We were hoping and praying for a son who would not be affected with the syndrome. As the due date approached in June of 99, I found myself becoming more and more overwhelmed by the uncertainties of life, and I asked myself this simple question, "is there anything I can count on in life?" I began to pour out my heart at the piano, and amid the tears, this song spilled out with the assurance that there is only one thing we can really count on, even when we don't understand: the faithfulness of God.

This song was initially used in the musical Father's House in London in 2000 with different words in verse three. When I began to prepare for this recording, I decided it was right to include so I changed the words of verse three from a lyrical focus on the vision of Father's House, to a verse on our appointment with death. Actually the day I wrote the new words for verse three was the day after my car was totalled in an accident, and the day before I was booked to sing at the Sevenoaks Alliance Church in Abbotsford. That weekend one of the elders from that church had been killed in an accident, and the words about our appointment with death rang particularly true that Sunday morning.

Our 6th child was a son, and we gave him the name "Isaiah Robert," which means "God is generous - Shining Fame." We found out recently that Isaiah has Fragile X Syndrome as well. The day we found out, my natural response was to resign from ministry and to focus all my energies on raising special needs children. Before that day was done, we felt God's leading not to resign, but to continue to move forward and minister with a "limp," trusting God's faithfulness to carry us through.